So today I'm starting this blog.. I just need somewhere I feel okay to write what I think, feel, need. I'll put it out there now. I have anarexia and I like it. I battled with this constant war for years now. I'm not giving in. I started eating like "normal" people eat and gained 16 pounds. I look at myself in the mirror everyday and get sick looking at the girl who is looking back at me. I'm done trying to be "normal" it's making me unhappy.
So there it is. Take it or leave it, don't lecture me on it. Don't even try.
I started the ABC diet yesterday. I never heard of it before but I'm suppose to eat 500 calories a day. Do you even undertsand how much 500 calories is? I weight 115 right now and stand 5'3. My body needs to get used to eating like it was a year ago, about 100-300 calories a day so I'm starting my training now and whatever I eat I bike off every night.
I will get back down to 99lbs I hate this 3 digit weight I'm at. I hate my fat and I will get it gone. This is a battle I won't lose and so far my bodies adjusting fine. I'm taking fat burning pills too that are all natural (my boyfriend won't let me take anything harmful). So I hope this works.
